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C.N.P Poetry
I WORRY
By: Claire Scott I won’t be good at it confusing rows of pills in orange vials two pink ones at noon instead of at night forgetting the antiseptic wipe and sterile gloves when I flush his port I worry I will be resentful anger unfurling like a wind-whipped flag overcooking his eggs forgetting to order Depends I worry my life will be swallowed by his needs no time to walk, to write to have tea with friends I worry I will be lonely I watch others in the clinic one helping her h

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Lee Avenue
By: Benjamin J. Kirby Crash helpless against the molten surface of God’s angry sun Wound the mighty starlight with a meager shadow that lands Under my feet on the summer hot sidewalk of Little Rock walking north, past the school, past the church, past the park past a store that sells fresh coffee smelling of exotic places Rebound sideways to the choking reaches of forgotten space They call it dark matter, unseen but so is air, so is oxygen This is the course of your finality,

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Unrecorded
By: James Ducat A bird chortles and as I turn on the camera – who believes in bird-laugh – a red-tailed hawk carves a hole above the trees while the mobbing bird dives at it again and useless. The cackle is a threat the hawk doesn’t find funny or frightening. I was too stunned to hit record. That was them, dive-bombing after dinner in the room with ladderback chairs and wine-colored carpet. We get up but they stay, we move and they stay. Who is clearing d

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October
By: Madeleine Tompkins It is the second day of October. An onslaught of raindrops plays thunderously over every line somehow making each song sound grander and more tender while I sit at the stoplight on my way to work. The hillside next to me, covered in lilting grass as always, suddenly changes its uniform from a vibrant green to soggy waves of brown. The setting sun greets me early as I drive home, so bright and low I can barely see the road. Stay with me a little longer?

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Wait for Me
By: Paul Doty Amongst the many poems in a binding-split notebook is a last word a final line, an end. Seek a metaphor for raising sons and it’s a rubber soul worn off the vinyl, bald sneakers, long grooves walked, which, are, well, walked. Seated revolt, glass of beer crystal ball in hand looking backwards on accelerating time wanting to explain wait. Hall and Oates singing “Wait for Me” on the car radio driving north from Chesire County New Hampshire as coda to a daughter la

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Art Appreciation
By: DB Jonas Strictly speaking, he was only an impediment on the way to the menagerie. Franz Kafka, Ein Hungerkünstler The noise that drifted up to us in the otherwise empty gallery was nothing human, something rather like what we’d expect from a loosened drainpipe or desiccated seedpod rattling in the wind, a rusty hinge, a groan of faulty plumbing in the wall. Before too long, the connoisseurs of tedium had wearied of this slow uneasy art of his, an art composed of quiet

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Castle Hospital ICU, Oahu, Hawaii
By: Anna DiMartino My father calls to tell me he’s dying– the priest has come to give him his last rites. His words, a slow churn of gravel, each syllable dredged from a muddy gutter. I assure him there’s no priest, it was a dream. He says he’s made his peace, has no regrets, then asks about my brother and starts sobbing. I remember my father’s temper, his thick, calloused hands, the flash of heat that seared, bloomed raw, his brand on my skin, but his words, barbed and sharp

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Cherry Pepsi
By: Becca Alexandra Hurst Dad drives me to get cherry Pepsi. We only talk in the car. At home, I retreat, not dramatically, just in a to-do-list kind of way. You know? I stretch my legs on the dash. The sun hits just right. Sometimes I bring the fur throw from the front room, a cinema seat, a therapy couch, both. We keep our eyes ahead. No detours. Just the loop. The time it takes to finish a cherry Pepsi. Slowly. Our script’s well-rehearsed: job stuff, how my recovery is goi

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In Season
By: Rebecca O’Hagan She lay in a bowl of afternoons shrinking into herself, skin dulling, but how long the soul lasts in the hide of a tough old broad I couldn’t say; only burrow in, all claw. It starts with a sound: a golden sort of ticking tears through the sunless noon in tiny meteors of serum but the webbing underneath fights before conceding at last to sting and bless the eye, and now through the air a drift of miracle swings: summer in February whose tart freshness is a

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Disguised as God
By: Ahmed Shareef Sometimes God comes to earth disguised as me, we both tremble at the man throwing rocks together in the shape of a cross by the side of the street, telling him this is not me. I would have been at the hospital, during the birth of my father, wrapping the umbilical cord around his throat, like declining an invitation. My mother told me, “you belong to the world, you animal.” and I decline it. How could I be disguised as God when the strangers on the streets a

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uncontrollable weapons of pointed destruction
By: Kelly Lynn (how it feels to have memory loss) a steel wire shivers / shakes / quakes with each little ache - beat - my heart dares to make / to break apart dices my insides / every time someone unties a memory in their mind, ready to ride down the lane while I sit - behind - roadside encases / won’t let it start - skips - / loses its grip / - trips - sputters out across the floor beneath my feet heels click caustic citrus drips down my throat to promote silence as friends

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Jan 1
City of Rain
By: Mary Elliott The land claimed by river spirits in this city of rain. They linger on bridges, cloud-veiled, patient. Their voices coil through the steel, whispering: “All things, eventually, return to water. Stone, Flesh, Memory – all yield to time.” And the people pass blind beneath it all, blessed and cursed alike, their names scrawled in the rain and washed away by it. Mary Elliott is a member of the California Poetry Society and recently received an Honorable Mention i

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I Imagine A Future In Which Alzheimer’s Comes for My Parents Too
By: Bethany Jarmul The leaves flip like coins against the heart-heavy sky & frost fills the window’s reseau with toile. My mother folds her body beneath a blanket, clutching her wrinkled hands, eyes barren. In the hallway my father’s slippers whisper against the wood floor, pausing at each doorway as if to listen for a pet or playmate long-gone. A voice speaks—my voice, purpled with age. I feel the texture of the words, but can’t grasp them between my palms. A moth flits its

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Preliminary Notes on the Tactile Portrait of Two People
By: Austin Reece compare her heart to a well & his to brackish water sink down the well like a stone touch the sides of this wet cell let the rot make contact * he was never hard as rock she was never smooth as glass he was calloused fingers and cold hands she was smoke swelling from a cigarette * like braille on a broken heart he tried to decipher the signs

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My Corgi Digs Up the Petunias to Mozart’s Overture of the Marriage of Figaro
By: Ashley Harris “Picking the right type of music, at the right time, and for the right task, can be a powerful productivity booster.”—Tomas Chamorro-Premuzic, “Can Music Make You More Productive?”,
Harvard Business Review, September 13, 2022 With the first notes
of the cello, the idea
tantalizes, then vibrates,
and she trembles….
Not at the naughtiness,
but whether she
might get caught.
But the violins—
their yes, yes, yes, yes, yes—
hurl her toward the plante

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My mother used to say...
By: Gillian Leonard (after Marianne Moore) “There are two types of people; you are one, and I am the other. You tend to dwell and think too hard. Remember all those parties I had after your father left. He was just like you. And what about the books you read? Everything has to be dark. Like Viktor Frankl––I just didn’t get that book, the one you said totally changed your life. And the boys you bring home are just like the books. You should go to the beach and find some differ

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4AM AWAITING DIAGNOSIS
By: Mon Malanovich-Gallagher why sleep when back alleys swell with love song fog veils over lampposts’ heads their eyes agleam and bridelike time travels slowly like a hand of a lover over seaside wakening low rumble of waves coming crashing swallowing my grief premature and unspoken it is only with its’ breath wreaking havoc on my neck that I fill this life with wonder jump between pockets of streetlight like those in my teen jeans too small for their purpose become an exp

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Equinox Lily
By: M. Nova You never bloomed every summer— even when the heat blistered There were islands shores too dazzling, too barren whispered about never touched We planted the dead there equinoctial lilies drenched them in tears cheap vodka If you once brushed their petals— why go quiet now so lethal? Bees swarmed what you adored stripped the blossoms to bone Quick hands, sugar-drunk stinking of a first sin Who was I to take it? Who were you to let me? We lived scattered— on the roa

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still life
By: Lora Kinkade this week my mother took a class on watercolor from a childhood friend who taught a strategy of layering— a feature of accrual i heard through the grapevine about her disorder how she brought fruit for them to render how the peaches bruised visibly as they painted freshly pulled from their truckloads of ethylene gas after we eat you pick at the fish’s spine as if you’ve never seen one whole— never lifted the flesh from the bone like that i fed you each a chee

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March ninth
By: Emily Rankin The desperation of necessity, the precipice of doubt, that astounding needed thing— Trying to know where you are in time and space, Trying to feel your body trying to disappear. Feel your feet weighed to the planet— You’ve been here before. You’ve been here many times before. A moment in the tremendous energy of the infinite universe. Offer the body, Offer your silence. But the self ungrounded, that desperate need to cut away to the deeper complex forms— Ther

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That Tall, Skinny Palm Tree
By: Shaomei Yu I know, eventually That tall, skinny palm tree Is going to fall— On a rainy summer day When the wind rushes in With the destined rainstorm As though it happened in my dream The loose palm leaves Struggled, groaned before falling To the edge of the dusk— Buried deep in the wind No one heard Only the crescent moon Gazed in the shadow Wavering— With its silver hook But too late— It couldn’t save Not even a leaf Shaomei Yu is an imaginative and evocative poet with

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Undoing Buttons, One by One
By: Haley J. Martin-Sherman Shaky fingers struggle
To unfasten
the first button
in vulnerability strip poker.
How long do I wait? Is it still the third date?
When do I say my nervous system’s calculator’s broken-- reads unsafe in the hands of every man who tries to hold it?
How many cards
Do I deal out
At one time?
Just pull the card On the top?
Emotionless clinical diagnosis-- --Poker-face. Domestic violence. But isn’t this dating game
supposed to be fun?
Dealers choi

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Flight
By: Yvonne Morris Her voice on the phone whispers, Tell me. And from the other side of day, he sleuths through the wake of all they’ve been. He spies a loose thread on her forgotten scarf, this tiny clue like a tired aviator in strident flight, the drink cart bumping down the aisle over roiling engines. He imagines her fingers on a keyboard, self-possessed as the stratosphere. When she was a girl, her mother warned her, You look at the world through rose-colored glasses. How

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My mother speaks for the collective
By: Esther Sadoff She says we are hungry, we are tired. When my father gets a coffee, she says, I’ll share my coffee with you, even though she ordered orange juice. And maybe she means orange juice, or maybe she means what’s mine is mine, what’s yours is mine, and what’s mine belongs to all of us. Whatever my mother eats, my father eats it too, so much so that now my husband and I also declare we are hungry, we are tired, announcing for the collective what must be true. My mo

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