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New York State Sees Criminal: I See Brother

By: Flose Boursiquot



Through the screen  I see:  eyes blood red  lips trembling  then I see him.  Then, him.  He speaks  through tears  and I remember,  I can’t be soft. You’re 28, your life  is not over.  I can’t be soft.  I’m sister. A role.  But really a god.  I’ve become something  larger than omnipresent. Closer than knees-in-prayer-away  but far away, still.  1,200 miles feels like 3,000 when your flesh is rotting.  He, there, heartbroken.  Me, here, pretending to run away.  Tattooed knuckles  crumble like shattered  glass — he’s so broken.  He was shattered  before he broke  into me, but he did.  He was shattered first and he never healed.  When he stands, he pools  around himself, pushing  sharp objects into a human  for us to see.  Once, he did it long  enough to make, and so,  he made two beautiful boys.  When I pray to God  who is really God,  I say enough!  God, damn-it, enough heat!  Since when do you need  this much heat to blow  beauty into shattered glass?  Please, God, can’t you  see he’s broken.


Flose Boursiquot is a Haitian-born poet and writer. Her work has appeared in Ghost City Press, South Florida Poetry Journal, Foliate Oak Literary Magazine, HuffPost, on Blavity, and in 2017, BET named Flose one of its millennial poets to watch. The Malala Foundation's Assembly Platform featured Flose's personal story and spoken word poem "March On Sister" in their September 2018 issue. Flose has two collections of poetry: Close Your Eyes, Now Breathe (2017) & loudmouth (2018). Connect with her via www.letitflose.com or on Twitter @letitflosepoet. In "New York State Sees Criminal: I see Brother," the state, an entity, and I see the same person, but how we relate to him differ. There's no real mention of why the state believes my kin to be criminal; that doesn't matter here. It's not my role to read his rap sheet: it's my role to be his sister. My process for this poem was emotional. I wrote it while in tears and shortly after I came off the phone with my brother. He was going through it; it's not my place to say what. I edited it. Cut stuff out. And I worked to make the pain and anger evident. But there's some mystery. The poem also holds confusion and answers. I want to "save" this loved one, possibly because of cathexis more than love. In the first stanza, I see his pain before I see him. Still, he's brother, and I want to play God – make his pain go away. Maybe there is love? By the end of the poem, I realize I'm not God. I still have to crawl to God for answers and to make demands – to plead.


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