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C.N.P Poetry 

  • Writer's pictureCathexis Northwest Press


By: Christine Pakkala

His mother’s queries and dearies in their kitchen

slide off her tongue to the girlfriend’s mouth

and she politely eats them.

This girl makes her potato-eating home state

a punchline, a hell, a ratio:

one million acres, one million people.

She had to google shiksa

after he teased her with that;

and gridlock she thought was traffic

after a football game, but yes,

she has had bagels.

Today it is Christmas, though not on these streets:

The Poplars, The Birches, The Oaks.

Blackish-green trees not weighted by tinsel,

nor plucked, strung cranberries. She is not

resurrecting a manger scene tarnished

by storage, unwrapping a cry of surprise,

holding green gelatin between her legs

as the family car glides

by blinking ranch house silhouettes.

Girl sits at the farm table

covered with MOMA mats, where her cup,

streaked like threads of tears,

rests near Menorah candle wax hardened 

into purple pools someone touched

while hot, and they are

eating salmon boneless,

talking about the homeless,

then a story of the Holocaust, a relative 

throwing a letter from a murderous train:

Don’t tell Mama and Papa 

what happened to me.

She’s stunned through;

sobbing in the bathroom;

for the girl on the train

for her own unspeakable loss,

for the snow on the ground in Idaho,

that her father skis over,

her mother buried under,

a red poinsettia on her grave.


Christine Pakkala is a graduate of the Iowa Writers Workshop (MFA, 1993). She was born and raised in Idaho and now lives in Connecticut where she teaches at the Westport Writers' Workshop.


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